| Metamorphosis is a biological process by which an animal physically develops after birth or hatching, involving a conspicuous and relatively abrupt change in the animal's form or structure through cell growth and differentiation. Some insects, amphibians, mollusks, crustaceans, Cnidarians, echinoderms and tunicates undergo metamorphosis, which is usually (but not always) accompanied by a change of habitat or behavior. :( Suddenly very emo.. Was contemplating of when I leave to Australia, what is the outcome of who I shall become to be.. I am not sure I would like the changes, studying by day, working by evening and partying by night. A person like me would not sit still, and most of the time do not have the ability to reject entertainment slapped at my face. Would I become a party animal, wild child or worse a Brat? Not that I am saying the people there are as such, that would be stereotyping.. I was just thinking, would I go out and party every week til I reach the brink of exhaustion. Dress up fancy day & night just to fit in. Splurge all I own..? Honestly, I am terrified.. Am I taking the first steps into becoming the person I detest? Would I forget the person I am today, strenghts, weaknesses and all? :( Guys, please remind me of who I am.. and prevent me from the worst of who I am to become.. Growing up is a distressful metamorphosis.. This is who I am and things i should remember... Skip it if u get bored. Its just a personal reminder for me.. i am rather nerdy, im wild and innocent at the sane time, Shy with the person I like, im sarcastic at times, random, weird, humorous, mischievious, cheeky, unpredictable with the person I love, I laugh with no sound when im high, I cramp when I laugh too much, I cramp when I do not eat my medicine, I love being around people, I love the people I love, I love dancing, I love singing, i love smiling. i love my parents, i love my boyfriend, i am forgetting how to love, i love steamboats, i love syabusyabu, i love the ol gang in dh23, i miss the gang from bdh27, i miss outings in pyramid, nowadays i shop too much, other times i do not shop at all, i own more den 30 dresses, i had 4 boyfriends, i kissed 2 of them, i love curly hair, my bf doesnt let my curl my hair, i love long hair, often i get stupid n cut it short, i love making new friends, i am intimidated by men with intentions, i am outgoing, i love fun but set my own boundaries, i love looking good natural, most of the time, that does not happen, concealer, eyeliner n gloss is my look, i like being smart because i dont fail myself or the world, i hate failing because i failed most of my childhood, i had cancer because i ate too much junk food, i hate doctors and blood bcos i still have nightmares, i forget things when i am stressed, i panic when im stressed, i cant remember roads because they all look the same, i cant remember most of the things unless im reminded by someone, i love my friends because they accept me for who i am, i am totally myself around the gang. I crack lame jokes and laugh at the stupidest things, the best part, they laugh along wid me, or rather at me.. i like making people happy, because i feel it is a daily routine i must complete. when my parents smile, i smile. when my bf scolds me i cry, when he hugs me im content. i havent been hugged by him in exactly 2 months. i 4got how to kiss, i4got the dances i took in highschool, i forgot how to play an qing on the piano, i am noisy, rude at times, i have table manners at times, i can cook 10 dishes more or less, i learnt how to boil porridge because of leilei. i give fever to the ppl who eat my food. i like going to the gym because i feel skinnier compared to the ppl there. i like long hair because im more feminine. if i had a wild companion. i would go bungee jumping, parachuting and gokart racing. if i had money i would buy my parents a mansion and fill it wid doggies. when i have money, i will open a chain of cafes under my name. i am going to print out life size portraits of me and hang them in my walk in closet to remind me of my youth. i would print out wedding photos full sized and hang them around my mansion. i would have a miniature doggy that will roll over n manja me everytime i walk by. leileis dogs are named hero n romeo. hwahwas dogs were born on christmas. dan loves starfishes. i bought her 2 b4. robin smells like tenom coffee bcos i love him. eugene takes care of me like a papa. johnson is my guardian angel with a devil prong.jackjack is my travel kaki.zoe was my best friend and i miss her eventhough i dont admit it. alex is stil my koh eventhough he is a pain in the ass. so many people i know throughout the years. so many walk in n out. i remember the journey, pain n pleasure. i had the best night clubbing in bamboo after many failed attempts. korean dancers are hot. i went to redang in 2005,2007,2008,2009. remember to take diving course next year. DO NOT SHOP TOO MUCH AT AUSSIE. visit ur future inlaws b4 u leave. u need to do medical n visa today. get ur college transcript. arrange ur modelling portfolio n exam transcripts. My goal 5 years ago was to be a pretty, successful OL lady, top of everything. U still have a long way to go to that. do not lose focus. i have a modelling shoot on saturday, stop panicking. be courteous and polite with ppl u meet. stay sweet and kind to ppl u know. do not plot revenge or store hate because it destroys my happiness. do facials at least once a week. call back home often. share more love wid ur parents. ok.. only i can write a thousand word essay on myself.. im bored.. o yea... overall, im a dumb blonde.. :) |
